Five years. 

Woah, breaking records. It's really an awesome feeling. Being able to get through the bests and worsts. But sometimes, I wish we can go back to the time when we were still starting our relationship. When all you can think about is all  the cheesiness that will make you crazy all night long; When he was still your world and your his. When you think that nobody can ever beat your love for him/her.  

But I must say, old sayings are true. Things really CHANGE. There comes a point in your relationship when you feel that you are just a habit. When you feel unworthy or insecure. I'm sure guys won't admit it cos they are always secure about themselves. Never will they admit, cos that's how they are in nature. You will feel insecure, unloved, rejected and stupid. Sometimes, you will be treated as if it's okay to hurt you but definitely not okay to hurt their other friends or other people. That's just how it is. You are the shock absorber. 

I sometimes get jealous of my friends who's still in the first stage of their couple period, when demands are okay and does not need to be justified. When spending time with you or calling you 24hours a day-seven days a week is not yet annoying. When they decide to spend time with you instead of going out with friends. Bugsy told me before that this is not healthy and I agree 100 percent but I sometimes wish that we can go back at those times. Well not often cos we have different set of priorities now.

I understand that there is no perfect relationship. You might as well die if you claim that you are in that perfect world. It takes a lot of patience and understanding to be able to survive. AS IN 1BAJILLION SACKS OF IT.You are required to eat your pride a lot of times, say yes even if you really don't want to, not cry despite your aching ego, sacrifice your most wanted things cos you don't want this to be an argument nor be a threat to your relationship. Yes, you will feel tired of it but that does not mean it's time to give up. You should always ask yourself "What kept you holding on for so long?" 

I am entitled to become a ball of cheese, cos aside from this is my blog, it is August and we have a month till our anniversary, I might not have the courage to write this anymore, so here it is..

I hate you at times cos you are so unpredictable. I hate it when you pull me and bring me to another direction when we are walking. I hate it when you tell me not to argue with a cab driver or a sales lady when I'm in a war mode. I hate it when you make me wait, I hate it when you never listen to me and just go on with what you have planned. I hate it when you say that you are just saying and not asking permission while I'm not allowed to do so and many other things.

But just to say that I may not have the most perfect boyfriend, but I am happy cos he also chose to be with an imperfect girl like me. I am proud because we were able to keep up with each other, despite our own complains and shortcomings. He may sometimes feel that I don't care nor I am not paying attention but one thing's for sure, I will always be here when all his friends turn him down. I will be here when his family does not seem to understand his saga to adulthood. I will be here when he feels that mother nature is not cooperating. I said just one but I guess there's a whole lot more but to cut it short, I will always be here.

As you said in 2006 Niey, You will love me until I believe in forever again. Thank you cos you made me so happy all these years. You taught me to become who I am today. You have made my life a one hell of a roller coaster ride. You will always be my one true great love. 

I love you more today and will still love you more in the morning. 

Happy FIFTH Anniversary. 

My new Turf.

On July 1st, it's my official first month in my new job. So far, so good. Maybe less expectations brought me good. I just really love the fact that I have a bigger work station. Meaning, more space for my junk. 

I think it was on my first week when I started bringing all my stuff in the office. But since this is a new place, it needs new things and a new look. And so I did put on some new things but also kept the oldies. My work station is very important. That's actually one of the things, I would normally ask in my job interview. Off the record of course. I really don't know why, but my feelings for my work station is like a turtle to it's shell. HAHA Forgive me, If you don't get it. 

I'm learning to adapt with the new Cubao state of mind. Proximity wise, it is really accessible and near my house. I was able to make new friends easily. Just like what the boyfriend said, I am the Theory of Evolution. HAHA I adapt easily. Well, I guess, I'm still getting the hang of it. 

I'm really not sure if I'm happy about it. But for now, I'm really trying to set the border line between my work and personal life. I think this is really essential in order for me to keep my sanity and be able to live peacefully. 

I shall continue to work hard and stick to my current plan. Find the balance that I'm looking for and save up for my future. I just really need to focus now. Keep my eyes on the goal.

By the way, there's really something about my new job that makes me want to go back to school. As in I want to work and study again. I hope that's something good. 

All the best for me. May all my dreams come true. lol

Sagada Trip.

This post is way LONG OVERDUE.

So I decided to take the day off at work today and here I am trying to update my blog. Please expect to see posts on the same dates. 

Let me start by saying, AT LAST. I have decided to finish this entry.

Last February my friends and I decided to go to Sagada for fun. Yiii. We wanted to experience the spelunking adventure and the awesomeness of the weather there. Ever since I saw Juday & Piolo's film (Yes, I watched that and another Yes, I'm jologs.lol) I told myself that I will go there. And since I'm in my Dora mode and I also wanted to break in my new camera for an adventure, we went. 

Tomorrow is THE Day.

Tomorrow's the first of June. I shall mark my calendar cos it's my first day at my new job. I am really hoping to get a fresh start. Though, I still need to go to my current work cos I'm still rendering my notice. My last day was supposedly yesterday but my boss asked me if I can extend until next week. Well I agreed cos I need to get my pay on the 10th for our Bohol Trip. Times are hard, you know. lol

I'm feeling a bit anxious with a lot of things. It feels like I need to do a lot of tasks before I leave my current employer. In addition to that, I'm scared that my new boss might be more evil than my boss. Considering that at times, my current boss is really nice, considerate and almost the greatest. I'm just anxious that my new life might be more complex than my current "life". I don't know, this is just how I'm created. I tend to over think and drown myself with worries. 

I just hope that I made a good decision that this will do me good and that I'll be able to find what I'm really looking for. 

So fingers crossed and wish me lots of luck. *:D

Off to a fresh start.

#I'm getting there.

Quirky about an Interview

I have a job interview tomorrow. FTW. I hope I'll be able to nail this cos I really want to quit my job. The new company is way nearer than my current workplace. I just really wish I'll be able to get it. Please don't jinx me Monday. It's my first time to write about a stupid job interview. I hope I wont be disappointed tomorrow. 

Well this was supposed to be scheduled last Tuesday but due to my recent accident [did I mention that I got hit by a motorcycle last Sunday, that's why I was confined at home] they had to re-schedule. So I really hope that the wait is all worth it. I hope it means something. 

This is crazy. For the first time, I'm agitated. God damn it. I better rest and sleep, my interview is at 10AM. Oh well, If I don't get accepted, I will STILL resign on Friday. If you're going to ask me what will my plans be, I don't have any. So Lord almighty, please help me. 

I'm really hoping for a brand new start. So, fingers crossed. xx 

Another Monday.

After a week of rest here at home, I'm finally going back to work tomorrow and guess what? I DON'T WANT TO. I just really don't want to go back in that bin. I'm going to go crazy. 

It's pretty much going to be a hell week for me since there's a pile of work load waiting for sure. But Mom told me to keep it cool and just finish everything. It's just going to be another Monday. 

I want and Hopefully it's coming true.

I know I have been blogging about this before and I was not able to buy it yet cos I've been having second thoughts and with all the bills that I'm paying, I can't afford to add another payable on my list. 

But knowing myself, If I really want something, I make sure that I make it happen. And voila! I will be getting my new Blackberry 9300! Woot! Woot! My mom told me that I can ask grandpops to get it for me! isn't that a bright idea?? Oh, how I love my Mother. *:D

So we'll be getting my new BB on May 1st. That's next Sunday. I would want to get it tomorrow but my financier won't be available. Hihi. I love my one and only Lolo. He sure spoils us. I CAAAAN"T WAIT. Well, just wanted to write something that would make me feel good about myself.

#Yes, I'm under PMS, so bear with me.